Feeling of homesick and loneliness ...

These days when the school has closed down and the campus is deserted,
I am really feeling, for the first time, a sense of loneliness.
Everyone is either back home or somewhere nice having a good vacation.
I am still on campus, working on my same damn thesis. ... And these
days, I am missing Enakshi a lot. She was such a wonderful friend.
Someday, I will let go my past and go on; eventually; but looks like
its not going to happen any sooner. All other woman I met in life are
do not have the same qualities. I just hope she has a wonderful life
with her husband.

I have decided my mind, if everything goes according to plans, I will
definitely try to visit home middle of next year. I am too damn bored
and tired. I think I really need a break. Hope I get it soon :)

Thought ....

These days I am gradually realizing that no one cares more for us than
our very own family. Everyone else, every other relationship, to some
extent, is superficial. Even people whom we once have known to be our
good friends are also probably driven by their own self interests more
than what they care for their other friends. May be I am wrong, but
this is what I have learnt and seen at every stage of my life here.
Its sometimes shocking to see how little people really respect other's
priorities in life and are ready to compromise a little for their
friends. Everyone has their own little life which they are eager to
guard and make convenient. I really wonder why people become so
selfish and insensitive over the years? Why people stop respecting
even those whom they have known for a very long time and have spent
lot of time together? Is it the same at every place on the earth or is
it only me who has grown cynical over the years. Or is it that I have
seen more selfish people in life than every one else? ! Not sure!

"You Know My Name"; Music Video

The official video version of David Arnold and Chris Cornell's "You Know My Name", from the film "Casino Royale"

Weird day!!

Man, that was strange! Today I was to present the last paper at dsg
seminar & no one turned up (well almost coz Aiman just came around).
Hmm, I was actually expecting at least Geoff to turn up & officially
dismiss the seminar. oops! In the end, I was rather feeling bad that
I stayed up late night the other day reading the paper which is not
even remotely related to what I am working on. These days I really get
a feeling that the seminar is about xen & filesystems & some other
stuff which no one works on here (why can't they focus only on
things/areas on which we work on instead of going through every paper
on osdi/sosp?). so, its pretty bullshit!!

anyway, gotto get my thesis done really well. need to go back to work.